jillithian | Nov. 23rd, 2003

Called Lars yesterday. Rugby game on tonight, not last night. So I invited myself over. It starts at 11.

Had a discussion with me mum today over the phone. Turns out she felt like this, too, when she was my age.

Lonely.

I'm not married.

I'm not engaged and planning on getting married.

I don't own a house; therefore, I do not need to do any home improvements.

I do not have any kids.

I'm not pregnant and am not planning to have any kids in the near future.

I already graduated from school.

So I'm feeling entirely the odd man out versus my friends.

And I don't know where I'm supposed to meet people in my similar situation.

I can only go out by myself so many times before it really gets to me what a loser I am.

*sigh*

At least I've got good tunes.