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Sep. 30th, 2006 08:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jillithianI am in need of a change.
I find it far too convenient that the last time I had a crazy emotional breakdown was exactly four weeks ago. The last week, and highest hormonal dosage, of "the pill". (It's never cool to blubber to near strangers in a bar an hour away from home while your friends are on stage that you don't get to have babies yet even though everyone else does.) That was my most recent emotional breakdown before my emotional breakdown this week, which is also conveniently the last week, and highest hormonal dosage, of the pill.
And I'm not even on the full-on Ortho Tri-Cylcen anymore. I switched it up either last year or the year before to the Ortho Tri-Cyclen-Lo which is a lower, yet still effective, dose of birth control hormones.
This ain't cool. Especially when you have the guy two echelons up the corporate ladder (my boss's boss's boss) telling you that you've been "short" with too many people lately, but you're still a very valued employee and he just wants to help you improve. And then that causes you to burst into tears. Minutely regain control, run for the nearest bathroom, and burst into tears some more. Then ask the boss if you can go home an hour early to "run errands" but you really just want to run home to the only person who is legally supposed to like you regardless of anything.
Holy cow. If I am ever actually pregnant and all full of girly hormones, I'd recommend any and all people to run away. Far away. And fast. Because me and these hormones tend to not get along so well.
But what's the alternative to Ortho Tri-Cyclen Lo? That Yaz stuff being advertised? That's just more days of hormones, technically. 24 days instead of only 21 like OTCL. That doesn't sound like it'll help my issues. There's just Ortho Cyclen which is the same dosage of hormones for all three weeks instead of the current increas of hormones each week. But I'm not sure what that steady dosage is compared to the three stages I'm currently on. And condoms tend to be inconvenient and not Tim's favorite.
Pbbt.
I find it far too convenient that the last time I had a crazy emotional breakdown was exactly four weeks ago. The last week, and highest hormonal dosage, of "the pill". (It's never cool to blubber to near strangers in a bar an hour away from home while your friends are on stage that you don't get to have babies yet even though everyone else does.) That was my most recent emotional breakdown before my emotional breakdown this week, which is also conveniently the last week, and highest hormonal dosage, of the pill.
And I'm not even on the full-on Ortho Tri-Cylcen anymore. I switched it up either last year or the year before to the Ortho Tri-Cyclen-Lo which is a lower, yet still effective, dose of birth control hormones.
This ain't cool. Especially when you have the guy two echelons up the corporate ladder (my boss's boss's boss) telling you that you've been "short" with too many people lately, but you're still a very valued employee and he just wants to help you improve. And then that causes you to burst into tears. Minutely regain control, run for the nearest bathroom, and burst into tears some more. Then ask the boss if you can go home an hour early to "run errands" but you really just want to run home to the only person who is legally supposed to like you regardless of anything.
Holy cow. If I am ever actually pregnant and all full of girly hormones, I'd recommend any and all people to run away. Far away. And fast. Because me and these hormones tend to not get along so well.
But what's the alternative to Ortho Tri-Cyclen Lo? That Yaz stuff being advertised? That's just more days of hormones, technically. 24 days instead of only 21 like OTCL. That doesn't sound like it'll help my issues. There's just Ortho Cyclen which is the same dosage of hormones for all three weeks instead of the current increas of hormones each week. But I'm not sure what that steady dosage is compared to the three stages I'm currently on. And condoms tend to be inconvenient and not Tim's favorite.
Pbbt.
